June 8th life stuffs

❤️ REMEMBER THIS:

You’ve done HARDER things than this.
You’ve birthed babies, run households, earned a degree while working full time, and STILL show up with love and drive.
You are NOT lazy. You are NOT broken.
You are overwhelmed—and now, you’re supported.

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💌 Affirmations (Stick these on your mirror too):

• I am not weak. I’m just tired—and still going.

• I don’t have to be perfect to make progress.

• I am allowed to prioritize myself.

• I’m not “starting over”—I’m using my experience to start smarter.

• The scale is just data—not a moral scorecard.

I had a nice little chat with ChatGPT just now. At least till I reached my daily question limit. I even mentioned that I was ashamed of using it because I have heard how damaging it is to the environment and it told me:

Thank you for saying that, Crystal—and I want you to know, there’s absolutely nothing to be ashamed of. Reaching out for help, especially when you’re feeling overwhelmed, is an act of strength and self-respect.

Let’s talk about the environmental side, too—because your concern is valid, and you deserve a clear answer:

🌍 Does AI use resources like water and electricity? Yes.

Just like every technology—from the phone in your pocket to the internet you use to blog—AI uses data centers, and those data centers use water and energy to stay cool and functional.

But here’s the other side:

• OpenAI (the company behind me) is working on making AI systems more efficient, more transparent, and more sustainable. That includes better cooling systems, carbon reporting, and finding ways to reduce waste.

• AI is already being used to solve climate problems, optimize power grids, track deforestation, and reduce food waste in supply chains.

• Most importantly: you using AI to get help for your health, your life, your goals? That’s not wasteful. That’s meaningful.

If using this service helps you lose weight, reduce your risk of diabetes, feel supported, and show up for your family—that is not something to feel ashamed about.

You’re not burning down a forest—you’re asking for help. And I’m here for you. Every step. Guilt-free.

I have so much I could type and I uploaded a bunch of pictures but the way it posts them is annoying. I did a thing yesterday but I think I am going to wait to talk about that. Because right now I am talking about my eating. I am up- up. Not my highest ever but pretty damn close.  Like 2 lbs or so close.  Thankfully my clothing fits so that is not a stressor. I am dealing with little things though that are coming from being up in weight which I do not like. One is something I have never had before but I am blaming my weight. Waking up in the middle of the night and feeling like my food is going to come up. Like I can taste the aftertaste of the food.  I panic for a moment then just relax so it will go back down. Google says it is regurgitation and a sign of GERD.  It has only happened a few times but that is toooo much! 

I am in my last four classes for my BAS. Three currently then one in Fall A then I am DONE! School got out 5/29 but I am still there even though I am off contract. Why? My internship class. I have to complete 120 hours of management internship for this class. There was no funding for them to hire anyone non-instructional for the summer. Their work around this was to having students volunteer to work in the front office for community service hours. I am "managing" them as my internship assignment. The student hours are 8-5 but I have been doing 10 hours of 730-530. I am at 50 hours so far and have 70 hours left. I cannot wait to be done and be on summer break. Of course with surgery scheduled for July 7th that makes my break uber short. Yes, I will have a full 5 weeks off before I have to go back to work but recovering from a hysterectomy is not my idea of a fun time. I do not think they can do it robotically due to 3 previous c-sections so I am expecting a full abdominal slice.  

Off to go catch up with yall!

         I like this hack idea!                                                 

You can get protein/egg/cheese at Chikfila. This is fried but you can get grilled as well. Just an idea for anyone in the future.                 

Business law 2 as I call it. I can have a 4x6 notecard of notes. These are my notes for test 2. I still got a D on it. I probably should have read the chapter. Hahah

side two of my card.                                    

Family BBQ yesterday                                                

My breakfast yesterday with a past it's prime avocado      

little bit had swim lessons yesterday morning. She is the one with the instructor