Day- I dunno

I am to lazy to go try and figure out what day it is honestly. This happens to me every time I try and be on a plan. I forget what day I am on. But really, as long as I am following my plan (I am) it really doesn't matter what day I am on. I had a few days where I wanted to reach for stuff off plan but honestly there was nothing in the house that would satisfy the want. I tried to ask myself WHY I was feeling so much like straying but honestly no answers came. I did hold out though. Then I realized it was probably lingering stress. (See below)

Heck, I even planned on having a carby meal last Tuesday after a long and stressful day.
Auto pilot steered me away. Monday (1/23) my MIL had a partial hysterectomy. Tuesday morning I got a phone call from aunt that my FIL was taken to (different) hospital by ambulance for possible heart attack. She was going to see MIL as she was excepting FIL at 8am. I was supposed to work but I wasn't locked in a store so I hauled butt to the hospital. Sat with him and they took him for a 2nd CAT scan where they confirmed blood clots in his lungs. He was admitted and given blood thinners to break up the clots. Meanwhile my husband was home with baby girl. His brother and wife arrived at the hospital and we decided both the boys would go to hospital to visit mom and tell her about blood clots. I came home and took over baby duty while the boys went. After a few hours my husband calls and says that his brother and wife went back to dad but he is still with his mom. (The hospitals are 25 miles apart) Turns out blood results came back and he did in fact have a heart attack. Three arteries clogged. One at 90% so they immediately put a stent in that one. He was moved to ICU while they tried to find cause of blood clots. A cousin took baby girl so hubby and I could go up to hospital that night. I totally planned on hitting Chick-fil-a on way home. Auto pilot kicked in and I turned to go the way home. CFA was in opposite direction and I just didn't care enough to turn around.

We picked up MIL on Wednesday and took her to FIL's hospital. Hubby went with her to visit and I couldn't due to baby. I didn't even want to take her into the hospital. So her and I wasted time at Target. I got her birthday presents on clearance and cartwheel. (3 wks away Whaaaaaa!)  She scared the shit out of me. I had travel formula packs but a different kind then normal for her. I only made 4 oz because I didn't know if she would drink it being as water was ice cold from water fountain and different flavor. She guzzled it down and was PISSED that I didn't have more ready. She did that baby scream where they suck in breath and hold it. She held if for so long she was limp. I was ready to start screaming myself but she finally inhaled. Then held it again for a few more seconds then quick breaths. She was dazed for a few seconds, then fine. I was crying in the isle she scared me so much. Once I collected myself I went and made her more formula and all she wanted to do was chew on the nipple. Went to go pick up hubby from hospital and started googling. Turns out it is fairly common. Her lips did not turn blue so that is a good thing. Then I remembered that my husband had a thing as a kid.  My husband was one of those children that if he got mad at you he would hold his breath till he passed out. I wonder if this child will follow in his footsteps.

FIL is now out of hospital and home. He has to go back in three weeks for two more stents.  MIL and FIL are both on limitations though so his sister is moving in to help them.

Day 36- I did the math.  I am down just over 7 pounds.

28 day

I am happy to report that all is well. I missed weigh in on Sunday. I worked and all my focus was on getting to work on time. 😅 I may have hit snooze to many times.

I am off Wed so I hope to report in with a more detailed post. I hope your trucking along as well.

Day 18 over here.

Here I am half way through day 18. My weight isn't dropping like crazy BUT I am OK with that. Down is good no matter how fast.

My mental clarity is amazing though! 

My mental status paired with the beginning of the year organization I am working on for work feel so good! I am just really pleased with myself and how I am finally stepping more firmly into my role after 3 years. 😅
I have had the title but not much authority. I felt the title was more of something to keep me happy.

 In late October I was finally given a certain password within the company that gives me the feeling of authority. I felt like a fraud before. 

Once again, I get caught in the weekday cycle of wanting to blog but not having the mental capacity to write a long post. I did take pictures this week with intentions of sharing.

This is fathead pizza made with fathead pizza dough. I used colby jack so my crust is orange. It was good. I did not follow directions all the way I realized but it was to late to turn back. Initial recipe has you cook 8 min then pop any bubbles and put back in for 10 to 12 I want to say. I only cooked it 8 min because it looked plenty done to me. Although to be honest I had already put on toppings on before I realized it was supposed to go longer anyway.   Attaching a screenshot of the recipe for you. 

Day 12

Here I am half way into day 12. So far so good as far as staying on plan. ☺ I am a daily scale peeker and my weight seems up. That is OK though. This isn't a race.

I have wanted to blog several times this week. Having nothing to say but -Day x went well yeah- stopped me. I wouldn't want to see a new post alert on a blog and go there eager to read and just see that. I doubt you want to as well. I guess I have things to say but not the time/mental capacity to after 10 hrs at work. Words are flowing today but it is my day off.

I feel good though. I am on track for success. I do need to add in movement to help me travel the path more efficiently. Boy do I have a list of excuses for that though. Hah!

I hope that this clear thinking on the ball path will help me on the financial path. It's uphill right now.

Our mortgage got sold which makes me sad. Not that I loved our old one or anything but this new one pretty much has  negative star reviews they are so bad. I made the first payment to them Thursday. I had a little cushion then car issues happened. I have a great inexpensive mobile mechanic thankfully. The things still added up though. First my battery went out. Do you know where a battery is on a Dodge Avenger?   Picture below until I can move on laptop.

It is behind the drivers side front bumper in front of the wheel. Bizarre. I knew it was somewhere in there though so I wasn't completely unaware but it isn't like the auto parts place is going to change that out.

It actually started with a ER visit the night I found I had a car issue. Dec 12th My family and I attended the yearly Christmas parade of the town my job is located in. We walked down the street handing out candy canes and flyers for my job as I was on the clock.

Picture below till I get on laptop to move.

 After the parade my husband bought the kids cotton candy on paper cones.  Later that evening after they ate the candy they were being boys and playing with the cones. My oldest son (11) took off his glasses and was looking through the tube like a periscope. My youngest son (8) decided that would be a good time to smack the end of the cone.  Of course that ended in a ER visit.

I thought I saw a scratch on his eye but I don't normally peer in his eyes looking for scratches. I felt it was best to take him in just in case. Good thing I did. He actually had 2 scratches. The one I saw and a second one.

Picture below till I can move on laptop.

Antibiotic drops were prescribed. I had to go across town to the only open pharmacy on Sunday night and got there 10 min before close. The pharmacist was a peach and had no problem filling it. We went to leave and my car wouldn't start. Everything black. Shit! Called my brother since he is mechanically inclined and my husband is not. Not to mention he was home with the other two kids sleeping. My brother jumped us and car started right up. Yeah! Within 30 seconds of him removing cables the car died. Shit again! He didn't being his voltmeter to check the alternator but we assumed it must be that. He brought us home and I left my car there overnight. Met the mechanic there Monday morning and he had his voltmeter. Alternator was working just fine. Went and got a new battery and he installed it an all was well. 

Within the next two weeks I realized my car was getting louder and louder on the road. Finally googled and saw information on wheel bearings going bad. Crap. I can drive over 500 miles in one week with my job and traveling. I switched a travel day with boss lady so I could get my car worked on. Mechanic is actually boss lady's oldest son. Bad rear drivers side wheel bearing. I also had him do a simple tune up while he was here. Between both those things with labor and parts (I always pad his fee because he is so cheap) it was almost $380.00. 

I haven't even touched Nov 23rd yet. That will be another blog post. 😑😧

PS. Oldest son is fine. Apparently superficial eye injuries heal in like 24 hours. I took them for new glasses exam 2 days later and Dr saw nothing.

Let's talk scale numbers

I said I had gained weight. I did not clarify how much though.

When I got pregnant in June of 2015 I was 252.2. I went down some just because that is how I gestate. I ended up dropping more with gestational diabetes. After having her I actually ended up dropping over 40 pounds. I have pictures of 208 on the scale. I feel like I lost the entire time I was at home.

Once I went back to work the scale slowly went up. I felt better because I knew I had lost but I wasn't ready to commit to "being good" again. (We call it being good at work when we are dieting/watching our food) I knew I wanted to not get back up to where I was though.

Those 16's I was wearing while on maternity leave are hanging in the closet.

I ended up finding 2 pairs of 18s hanging out that I have been cycling through. I refuse to open the plastic bin with all my other 18s and 20s that I packed away. REFUSE. I also am feeling very uncomfortable in my shirts. After I lost so much I stocked up on semi form fitting shirts from Target. You know how sometimes slight form fitting looks a heck of a lot better than baggy? Well now the baggy shirts are back out because the form fitting shirts are way to form fitting.

Hence I knew I needed to get my ass in gear. I am a weird one and never start on the normal days everyone else does. I am on day 6 while many others are on day 1.

I feel great about my eating and my choices. 

Highest June 2014.  252.2 (6w pregnant)
Start.     Dec. 2016    238.0
                                   
                      
You can see I did finally halt it from going up. After 5 full days and day 2 of period I am already down 3.1 pounds. Of course I am a big believer on first 5 or so being water weight but I will still take it.

Yesterday my older brother and I went to visit our mom. She lives about 2 hours away in Tampa. We took baby oink with us. Here are two pictures of her sweetness sleeping in grandma's arms.