Hello 250's AGAIN. :(

 

So, I have heard marriage described before as being like an ocean. In the aspect that there is high tide and low tide meaning everything is great when it's high tide and everything is not so great when it's low tide. Of course, you also got the whole a ring as a circle never ending with no break yada yada yada. Well, we know that our weight loss and weight gain also tend to run circular pattern.

 

Most of the time we equate this with a yoyo.

 

I'm in the orange right now.

Basically, due to life and just trying to survive I am back at an all-time high AGAIN.

It is what it is I'm not beating myself up. I'm not upset with myself which is kind of strange to be honest lol. And when I say trying to survive it's a whole different way to trying to survive than when it was let's say a year ago. Last year I was still in school and then my iron was in the toilet and then the mental aspect of the job and never knowing where I will be. This year I'm not in school anymore thank goodness but I do still have to deal with school things now with being a first-year teacher. The crappy part is since my degree still is not conferred; I am still working at my old pay rate of a sub. Basically doing math not accounting for taxes just using gross numbers I am losing $125.60 A DAY!!!

I'm quite sure those days are a little bit rougher would feel a lot better if I was actually making what I'm supposed to make a day lol OK so now my life has just been balancing lesson planning and hiding from lesson planning HAH! I've been doing a lot of reading in my spare time. The problem is lesson planning has turned into like my college school work. Meaning when I'm in the mood everything's fantastic and flowing well and I'm in the zone. But when I'm not in the mood it's a really big struggle to get stuff done. But that's just how I am and I know that so I have to cope with that.

Cross Country has been something making it a little bit difficult just in the aspect that my weekend one day at least has been taken. Cross Country season is officially over now though and won't be back in play until August. Although my husband will start up conditioning practice probably in like February for those that don't want to run track. Then of course he'll have it over the summer also.

I don't know where I'm going with this post other than to say that I'm here I'm alive I just caught up on a couple different blogs. I'm on break for a week now and I haven't done much of anything other than a mommy daughter day on Tuesday. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving we're going to family's house and then Friday I have an oil change. My car is about 4000 miles out of the oil change zone so they're going to complain. But I believe this is my last free oil change so they're going to try and get me to do everything under the sun and I'm going to have to tell them no thank you.