Meh

I am just so friggen meh and over whelmed right now.  I keep cycling through emotions.  You would think something is seriously wrong, but nothing is.

My job is really not fun.  However, being the only one working and having a OK pay for this area and no degree makes changing jobs hard. Plus, I have been at my job almost 6 years now.  I hate the unknown too.  What if I leave my current job for something that sounds better only to have it royally suck. I have always envisioned a M-F office job.  I have always worked places that are open 7 days a week with varying hours. I have never had a job with PTO or sick days.  Of course I have never called out either unless myself or a child was in the hospital.

I was supposed to have a 3 day weekend but I am pretty positive that I will have to work Monday now.  My coworker is having a last minute C-section first thing Monday morning due to pre-eclampsia signs. My job is super busy the first week of the month and then the holiday and then and then.  BLAH! I have family plans on Monday to take my sister and her hubby to see Silver Springs. Chances are I will have to work as I am the stronger of any of the others that can work that day. I wouldn't mind so much if they would allow me some overtime.  Or NOT cut my hours!!!  They are cutting our hours and it hurts!  Not for performance but trying to save money where ever they can to pay for lawyers and such.  One of our stores up north had a large amount of money stolen and they are trying to take the person to court. The state this happened in requires forensic accountants to be hired and they are not cheap.

And I just got hot pepper oil in my nose.  I think it is going numb.  Shit!