Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Personal identity crisis

Do you ever feel like you don't fit in?

I think I have felt like that pretty much my entire life. Lately I have been feeling it more so than ever actually. I have been tempted to delete my facebook account more than once in the last few weeks. (As it is I feel like all of the notifications I get are about games anyway) No swan song post about how I am leaving. Just a quiet delete.

Am I just feeling sorry for myself? I really don't know. I have been trying to identify what is going on that is making me feel this way. Maybe it is because I don't really have any friends anymore. The only texts I get are from my sister in response to a question I asked her about her upcoming move/wedding. The friends I would speak to daily/weekly and I have just grown apart and I am not sure I care to reconnect with them. Not that they are bad people or anything. We just don't have much in common and our life paths are different.

I do have a couple core high school friends that I haven't spoken to in a while. I think it is time to touch bases with them. You know, the kinds of friends that you can talk to a year later and it feels like it was just yesterday you last hung out. All of my core live far away though which makes me sad.

I re-added a blog list and if your not on it yet and want to be please let me know. It used to be easier to add if I recall correctly. I know I have people missing from there I wanted to add so it will be a work in progress.


  1. I often feel that way myself. Don't know if it's because I'm an only child but sometimes I try to think of it as being unique.

  2. I feel like this quite often actually. I dont think its a bad thing for me though -- after looking back I realized just how much negativity I was around a few years ago. Friends who were never happy with their lives and even some family members. I had to get away from it all and now that I'm in a better place I suddenly have no clue where I fit in.... sounds like its time for a new social circle to form... sadly the introvert in me doesnt make it a priority. I feel fine with the friends I speak too once in a blue moon.. like thats all I need for the time being.

  3. This is exactly how I am feeling lately. I hate that feeling. I have just a handful of friends, but have gone by the wayside with them for one reason or another (not enough support for me, it is always me doing for them...). I wish I could get out of this funk too - searched around a bit for a new group like on find something I am interested in and find new friends in the process. I hope that you can find a direction!!



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